God has given me a beautiful prayer and meditation to say every day. I realize a lot of Christians are stuck. They want to fulfil their calling and be bold and go out and reach people with the Gospel, but are too broken to do it. I am in that place too and God gave me this prayer and told me not to argue how long it is going to take to be healed. I believe everyone who prays this prayer and meditate on God's love and do it often will be mightily changed if we do it properly and with faith. The prayer is;  

I place myself in your heart Jesus and I offer up my day bathed with your blood and ask may I enter in and be healed of past memories and hurts and pain produced when I fall. I give you all my sadness and dreams and also my laughter. Cleanse my heart with yours please God.

Prayer is so powerful and we need to pray for everybody not just our family.