Twenty-three years later he got a message from her  

She made brief disclosures and said she was sorry  

He was happy to hear from her 

Yet he was upset when he learned the truth  

That she had felt the same way he did 

But she was now saying this twenty-three years later

As he reflected 

He felt anger 

The way she behaved back then left him with the impression that she rejected him 

He read her message again 

Looking for words that he longed to hear her say 

They were not on the page 

The feelings were mutual she said 

Did she mean she was crazy about him as he was about her? 

Because twenty-three ago her actions did not show it 
 

Hmm! Richard sighed and thought to himself;  

Her words are quite formal and vague 

How dare she just pops up requesting that I accept her apology 

Did she really consider how I would feel? 

Yes, I moved on but with the hurt 

Men hurt too 

Did she know that I was truly in love with her? 

It was never infatuation  

Mixed emotions are now what Richard has towards her 

He wants to forgive her 

But there is a struggle as he remembers the way she treated him 

He has decided that he will not respond to her 

He will ignore her request for him to indicate that he accepted her apology 

He wondered if it is sincere 

Since she did not say what he really wanted to hear 

When she realized that he read it but did not respond 

She understood then what if feels like to be ignored 

Not just by anyone but someone you care about 

Twenty -three years ago she had done the same to him and thought it would never affect him 

After all, males don't take such things to heart she had reasoned 

They move on,  

This is not always true 

Boys and men have feelings too 

What should she do? 

She did not want to impose herself upon him, hence the tone of her apology 

How could she reach out to him without compromising her faith and Christian values? 

She feels it is unfair for her to take all the blame 

She must pray for him not just to forgive her; but that he comes to know the Lord who is healing her 

For she lived for many years with the same hurt he felt 
 

Heavenly Father, please heal Richard for my past actions have hurt him...  

Let him know that you have never ignored him  

From heaven, your eyes have always been upon him 

Draw him to yourself 

Let him experience the depth of your love for him 

For your love is greater than the love a woman can have for a man 

Greater than the love a man can feel for a woman 

Greater than a mother's love for her child 

Your love lifts us  

Just a few words from her prayer 

She wishes he could hear 

Just to know she is sincere 
 

By Tesse Wilson 

All good gifts come from the Lord. Tesse is happy to be gifted by the Lord to write. It is her prayer that her writings will bless, encourage and inspire others. Thank God for his Spirit who gives inspiration and his grace which enables her.